I have lost myself to internal conflict

Just think about everything you’ll miss

Listening to music late at night

The small things that matter

Just start seeing the light

But it’s really not that easy

Life has no purpose anymore

I don’t want the lights

It’s the stars I adore

You have come this far

Think about the people you love

Don’t leave them behind

It’s never too late to rise above

I have come this far

But what’s the point if I one day die

No one will remember me

Years after I’ve said goodbye

What about your dreams

Everything you want to become

Isn’t it worth fighting for

You are not like everyone

I always hoped

One day it would be better

But one day has already come

And it has only gotten worse

Just don’t give up

It will be alright

Just talk to someone

Believe me, they won’t fight

I have opened my mouth

Enough times to know

That no one cares

Everyone is my foe

If you take your life

The demons will have won

Don’t let that happen

You have to overcome

Don’t you see

You are a voice inside my head

I have already lost

I am only a skeleton lying in bed

But just wait

This cannot be the end

If you do this I will also die

And I am your only friend

You are not my friend

You are my enemie

My only friend is God

You are only a reflection I see

Goodbye

I lost my friend today

You came to talk to me

As I was standing under

The lonely tree

You began speaking

But soon your words where swallowed

By a goodbye

I knew that I have finally lost you

Eventhough you were never mine

Suddenly I felt like the tree

As I saw your ponytail disappear

Around the corner

I lost my friend today

I am the lonely tree

Providing shade

But still unnoticed

It fades

I stood there

As the word echoed

Through my mind

Disappointment surrounded me

As I was left behind

One word

I lost my friend today

Goodbye

The past is only that

It’s 2020! A new year. A new decade. A new beginning. But sometimes it is hard to see it that way. Some of us don’t see the things right in front of us because we are still living in the past.

Our lives are rotating around memories, but what if we just keep remembering things we regret.

“Regrets and mistakes are memories made…”

This is part of the lyrics of Adele’s song ”Someone like you”.

I totally agree with that statement. Regrets and mistakes are nothing more than memories, and pretty much the only thing we can do about it, is regret it.

That’s the problem. We lie awake at night because of regrets, eventhough we can’t change anything.

Regrets oftenly keep us from living life to the full.

So, how can we stop looking back, and start looking forward?

1. Forgiveness

There is quite a difference between forgiving others and forgiving yourself. For me it’s way easier to look past the mistakes of the people in my life. But when it comes to self-forgiveness it’s not that easy.

Maybe we expect perfection from ourselves. Putting to much pressure on ourselves is something that happens alot.

But just like we forgive others, we should forgive ourselves. So start excepting your past, your flaws, all your mistakes. Remeber you’re not the only one that’s human.

2. Self love

Self love goes hand in hand with forgiveness. In order to forgive yourselve and move on, you should start seeing yourself as worthy. We will make many more mistakes, so the sooner you except it the better. Start loving yourself.